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Stirring Up

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I had blocked it out...shut it down...walled it away
so, the bitterness and harshness settled at the bottom of my soul
--the toxic chunks of actions and words.
To ignore it made me think I felt giddy and light.

I spent the summer in a cave of self-preservation;
then school began
and the stirring began
     a word, a face, a memory
and the swirling began: the grunge and gunk--residue of unforgiveness

I am without the luxury of time to disregard and let it settle again
because the words, faces, memories are nearly constant
so I pick at the pieces and forgive
again and
again 
and
again


Even if that person wrongs you seven times a day and each time turns again and asks forgiveness, you must forgive. Luke 17:4

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